Was she the victim of foul play, an accident, or did she choose to disappear? In this episode of The Vanished, we retrace Diana’s last known movements, strange witness accounts, and the lingering mystery that has never been solved or.. was never meant to be solved.
The Gemara says we don't say Hallel on Purim because the reading of the Megilah takes the place of Hallel. On the surface level, this is difficult to understand. Hallel is words of praise to Hashem while reading the Megila just tells a story. In fact, the name of Hashem is not written there at all, so where exactly is the praise? One answer is that precisely because Hashem's name is not there, and we are reading the story with the understanding that He is behind everything that was happening, that itself is the praise of Hashem- recognizing that He’s behind the scenes in every occurrence, and there's a master plan in motion. Whenever someone relates a Hashgacha Peratit story, it’s the same kind of praise. They're understanding that the seemingly regular events that took place in their lives were completely orchestrated by Hashem. They put Hashem's name into every sentence and turn a mundane story into a great mitzvah. The more a person can recognize Hashem's involvement, the greater the praise becomes. Rabbi Menashe Reizman quoted a Chatam Sofer who brought to light an unbelievable praise of Hashem in Megillat Esther. It says there that Ahashverosh had seven close advisors, and when Vashti refused his request, he advised with them on how to go about punishing her. As we know, Vashti being killed is what paved the way for Esther to come in and bring about salvation to Klal Yisrael. It was this meeting that was deciding the fate of Vashti. There was already a prosecution in heaven on Vashti, being the granddaughter of Nevuchadnezer who destroyed the Beit Hamikdash, but that was not enough to seal her fate. The Gemara says that each of the names of the seven advisors hinted to a different aspect of the service of the Beit Hamikdash, and that brought the angels in heaven to ask Hashem to have mercy on His nation, in the merit of the service of the Beit Hamikdash. כרשנא (Karshena), the name of the first advisor, sounds like the words Kar Ben Shana, which the Maharsha says refers to the daily offerings in the Beit Hamikdash. The angels in heaven said to Hashem, ‘If you don't save the Jews, who is going to bring the Kar Ben Shana?’ The next advisor's name was שתר (Shetar), which sounds like the words שתי תורין (Sheteh Torin), the two turtle doves that were brought for certain offerings. And once again, the angels said to Hashem, ‘If you don't save the Jews, who is going to bring those offerings to You?’ The third advisor's name was אדמתא (Admata), which hints to the Mizbe’ach Adama, the altar made of earth upon which all of the Korbanot were brought. The next advisor's name was תרשיש (Tarshish), which alludes to the Tarshish stone that was put into the breastplate of the Kohen Gadol, who worked in the Beit Hamikdash. The next advisor's name was מרס (Meres), which alludes to the stirring of the blood of certain bird offerings. The next advisor's name was מרסנא (Marsina), which alluded to the stirring of the oil and flour in a flour offering. The last advisor's name was ממוכן (Memuchan), which alludes to the preparation of the Shulchan upon which the 12 loaves of bread were placed. For each of these things, the angels asked Hashem, ‘Who is going to continue them if Your nation will perish?’ Because of those advocating angels, who were prompted because of the names of those advisors, the fate of Vashti was sealed for death, and the pathway of salvation was paid for the Jews. Says the Chatam Sofer, Look at the unbelievable Hashgacha of Hashem here, and how much He loves and cares for us. He knew that one day these seven people would be meeting together in a room, and the Jews would need zechuyot at that time to have judgment in their favor. So, He put into the minds of the parents of these seven goy advisors, decades before, to name their children those specific names that would allude to the service in the Beit Hamikdash. Hashem was planning our salvation from decades before, even going deep into the minds of those Persian parents to make sure they name their children accordingly. The Hashgacha of Hashem is mind blowing! Every time we expose another aspect of His Hashgacha, we are also singing a type of Hallel and giving Him praise.…
The pasuk in Iyov states, " אלוקים הבין דרכה והוא ידע את מקומה ". The Malbim explains that only Hashem truly understands what is happening in this world—how people are being rewarded or punished. What appears to us as a reward may, in fact, be a punishment, and what seems like a punishment may actually be a great reward. We judge based on what we see, but Hashem sees the past, present, and future all at once. Only He knows the full picture—the deeds of each person, their inner thoughts, and their intentions. However, Chazal do reveal to us one way in which Hashem interacts with the world: מדה כנגד מדה —measure for measure. With this understanding, we can sometimes catch a glimpse of Hashem's justice in action. The way we act is the way we are treated. At the end of the seven-day feast in Shushan HaBirah , on Shabbat Kodesh , King Achashverosh called for Queen Vashti to appear and display her beauty. She refused, and as a result, she was put to death. Rashi brings the Gemara in Megilla , which asks: Why didn't she come? After all, she was just as immoral as Achashverosh. The Gemara answers that Hashem struck her with tzara'at , making her appearance repulsive. Since she had been summoned to appear without clothing, she was too embarrassed to show herself. Rashi explains that Hashem caused her to develop tzara'at at that exact moment so that she would refuse the king's order and be put to death—because every Shabbat , she would force Jewish women to work in a humiliating manner, without clothing. Now, on Shabbat , she was punished in the very same way. To the human eye, it seemed like a drunken king making an irrational demand and an impulsive decision to execute his wife. But in truth, it was all hashgachah pratit . Hashem orchestrated every detail—the king's command, Vashti's affliction—because of the wickedness she displayed every Shabbat . Nothing happens randomly. Hashem is behind everything, whether we see it or not. A young man who is becoming more observant spends a few minutes each night learning emunah with a rabbi. One evening, they studied the concept of מדה כנגד מדה , how every action is noticed and valued by Hashem, and how reward and punishment always come in perfect measure. A few days later, this young man was driving when someone accidentally hit his car. After assessing the damage, he realized that the driver who hit him was a kollel student. Feeling bad about making a Torah scholar pay, and knowing that the damage wasn't critical, he decided to let him off completely. Two days later, this same young man accidentally hit someone else's car. This time, however, the other driver insisted on getting the car repaired. The damage was estimated at $1,000—his entire week's paycheck. Feeling overwhelmed, he shared what had happened with a friend, who suggested visiting a trustworthy body shop owner he knew. When they arrived, the owner took one look at the damage, grabbed his tools, and within minutes had repaired the car perfectly —without charging a single dollar. At that moment, the young man recalled the lesson he had just learned. He had let someone off, and Hashem let him off. At first, he thought the second driver would simply forgive him, just as he had forgiven the first. But Hashem, in His infinite wisdom, arranged it differently. Even though we don't always understand Hashem's calculations, we can see glimpses of מדה כנגד מדה in our lives. Everything we do matters. Hashem wants us to make the right choices so that He can reward us—both in this world and in the next.…
At the beginning of this week's parasha , Titzaveh , Bneh Yisrael were commanded to bring שמן זית זך —pure olive oil—to light the menorah . Only the very first droplets from each olive were permitted for this purpose. Chazal tell us that although only 12 hours' worth of oil was placed in the lamps, the flames miraculously burned for a full 24 hours—demonstrating Hashem's presence among the Jewish people. The menorah represented the light of Torah. The Gemara states that whoever wishes to attain wisdom in Torah should face slightly southward while reciting the Amida , because the menorah , which symbolizes Torah wisdom, stood in the southern part of the Beit HaMikdash . The power of Torah is far beyond our comprehension. The Midrash tells us that Shlomo HaMelech constructed ten menorot for the Beit HaMikdash , each with seven lamps, totaling 70 flames—corresponding to the 70 facets of Torah. Chazal further teach that as long as those flames were burning, the 70 nations of the world remained subservient to Am Yisrael . But from the day those flames were extinguished, those nations gained power over us. All of our strength comes from Torah. The Sefer Sas Be'Imratecha records a powerful story about Rabbi Moshe Chevroni, the former Rosh Yeshiva of Yeshivat Chevron . At one point, he wasn't feeling well and went to the doctor for an evaluation. After running tests, the doctor informed him that he had been diagnosed with a serious illness and had only three months left to live. His family and talmidim were devastated. But instead of falling into despair, the Rosh Yeshivah made a firm decision—he would dedicate these final months to learning Torah without interruption , stopping only for the most basic necessities. And so he did. He immersed himself in Torah study, and Baruch Hashem , instead of living for just three more months, he lived for another 20 years. The Steipler Gaon , upon hearing this, remarked in amazement, "Hashem gave him a blow, but instead of breaking from it, he elevated himself—and the merit of his Torah added 20 years to his life." What was even more astonishing was that throughout those two decades, he never required treatments that would prevent him from learning. He continued delivering his regular shiurim and prayed with the yeshiva minyan every single day. The Chozeh of Lublin once had a long line of people waiting to see him for berachot and advice. Suddenly, in the middle of his appointments, he asked everyone to step out of the room for a few moments. Once the room was empty, he locked the door. One of his chasidim , eager to learn from the Rebbe , hid inside the room to see what he was going to do. To his astonishment, he saw the Rebbe take out a Mishnayot and begin learning a perek . Unable to contain his curiosity, the chasid revealed himself and asked, "Rebbe, why did you send everyone out just to learn a perek of Mishnayot?" The Chozeh replied, "The last few people who came to me shared their suffering and begged for salvation. I felt that in order to give them a proper beracha, I needed the strength of Torah within me—so I paused to learn first." All of our great rabbanim who had the power to give berachot drew that strength from their Torah learning and purity of character. We must treasure the Torah we have and use our time wisely to learn it in depth. It provides us with the spiritual energy we need to succeed in this world. Shabbat Shalom.…
The Perush HaKotev on the En Yaakov asks how we can understand the words of Chazal that whoever says Tehillah L'David ( Ashrei ) three times a day is guaranteed to be a ben Olam Haba . It seems like such a small task to receive such an enormous reward. One of the explanations given is that the essence of this mizmor is to praise Hashem and reinforce our belief that He is all-powerful, capable of granting us anything we need, and that only He alone can help us. If a person repeats this message three times a day and truly internalizes it, he is most certainly worthy of Olam Haba . The Mabit and Sefer Nafshi Cholat Ahavat'cha elaborate on this concept. The main goal of prayer is for the one praying to recognize that everything he asks for is dependent solely on Hashem. This is one of the reasons why Hashem gives us needs—so that we will come to Him, ask for help, and ingrain within ourselves the understanding that only He can provide for us. When a person reaches the level where he wholeheartedly believes that his request can only be granted by Hashem, he has already fulfilled the purpose of having that need. In most cases, it is at that moment that his tefilla is answered. A person who understands that one of his primary purposes in this world is to believe that everything comes from Hashem will cherish every request he makes of Hashem. Every time he prays for a shidduch , healing, parnasah , or anything else—if he has the right thoughts about Hashem's power—his prayer is already a tremendous success, even if he hasn't yet received what he is asking for. These emunah -filled requests acquire eternal life. They are worth more than any material gain in this world. Therefore, if someone has a need that has led him to pray to Hashem for an extended period and he has done so with the belief that only Hashem can help him, he should feel a deep sense of hakarat hatov for the incredible opportunity Hashem has given him to earn eternity. This is in addition to the great mitzva of ולעבדו בכל לבבכם that he fulfills each time he prays. This perspective can help us focus better during our tefillot . If we understand that the true purpose of our prayers is to strengthen our emunah and recognize that only Hashem can grant our requests, we will prioritize this mindset each time we pray. It is recommended that during tefillah , we pause and think: "I am about to acquire another treasure—the understanding that only Hashem can give me what I seek." Then, for each request, we should consciously reinforce this belief. With this approach, every prayer builds our Olam Haba . And yes, as a side benefit, once a person fully believes that only Hashem can provide what he is asking for, most of the time, he will be granted his request. But that is only secondary. The greatest treasure lies in the emunah that prayer cultivates within us.…
When a person is in need of a salvation and has exhausted all possible avenues of hishtadlut , he can fully rely on Hashem for salvation. We are only obligated to make hishtadlut and act within the normal framework of the world when opportunities are available. But if we have tried everything and no solutions remain, our only task is to turn to Hashem and pray. The stronger a person's emunah in his tefillah , the more powerful it will be. The pasuk states, " כי הוא אמר ויהי " —Hashem created the entire world with His words. " השולח אמרתו ארץ עד מהרה ירוץ דברו ." When Hashem wills something to happen, He sends His word, and it moves with lightning speed to fulfill His command. The moment Hashem says the word, there is no delay—salvation is already in motion. The first mitzva discussed after Matan Torah is the laws of Eved Ivri —a Jewish servant. Why is this the first mitzva introduced? I once heard a profound explanation. The Jewish people had been slaves in Egypt for 210 years. From their perspective, it seemed impossible that they would ever be freed. Imagine someone in year 205 being asked if he thought freedom would ever come. He would likely have said, "We've been here for centuries—nothing is ever going to change." Yet, when Hashem gave the command, not only were they freed, but they themselves became slave owners. A person can rise from the lowest of the low to the highest of the high in an instant. A maggid shiur from England shared how he struggled with parnasa . His salary arrived sporadically—some months he received only a third of his wages, sometimes even less. There were months when he wasn't paid at all, followed by months when a lump sum would suddenly appear. Living with such financial uncertainty forced him to pray from the depths of his heart, knowing that Hashem alone is the provider. Recently, several additional difficulties arose, including government delays in payments they were supposed to send him. His children needed food, clothing, and other necessities. The holidays were approaching, and he had no idea how he would afford everything. One day, his wife asked him to go shopping for essentials. But when he checked his account, he saw there was no money to spend. He told his wife, "We need to turn to Hashem and beg Him for a yeshuah." That morning, after Shacharit , he bumped into an old acquaintance. The man said, "We haven't seen each other in a while. I have £5,000 and was wondering if perhaps you wanted to borrow it from me." The rebbe couldn't believe his ears. It was as if Hashem had sent him a messenger immediately after he finished praying. He happily accepted. A few days later, a family member reached out—without being asked—and said he wanted to help him for the holidays. Shortly after, he deposited a generous sum into his account. In the days that followed, instead of paying only a fraction of his salary, the yeshiva deposited a much larger amount than usual. Then, the family discovered money in the house they hadn't even realized they had. And finally, the government transferred all of their delayed stipends. Within a few days, the rebbe had over £100,000 in his bank account. All at once, an outpouring of shefa came pouring down from Shamayim . But it came after an abundance of tefillot , immense emunah , countless shiurim in Sha'ar HaBitachon , and receiving continuous chizuk . Hashem's salvations are truly wondrous. They can come from anywhere, in the blink of an eye. No matter how long it has been, things can always change instantly. Our job is to always pray with emunah .…
The Gemara in Sanhedrin tells us that David HaMelech asked Hashem why, in the Amidah , we say אלוקי אברהם, אלוקי יצחק, ואלוקי יעקב . Hashem responded that it is because the Avot were tested and passed their tests. We see from here that tests make a person great in this world. The Midrash in Tehillim says that Hashem does not elevate a person to a high position until He first tests him. The pasuk states that Hashem tested the Jewish people in the desert " להטיבך באחריתך " The Sforno explains that Hashem wanted to elevate Bnei Yisrael to become even greater than the angels who serve Him, and that is why He tested them. Many times, Hashem has gifts waiting for a person, and by passing a test, they become worthy of receiving them. A well-known story illustrates this concept: Rashi's father, Rabbi Yitzchak, once found a rare diamond and went to sell it to a local jeweler. The jeweler didn't have enough money to purchase such a valuable stone and suggested that the bishop buy it instead. The bishop had been searching for such a diamond to place on his cross. He offered an enormous sum of money for it. When Rabbi Yitzchak heard the purpose of the purchase, he refused to sell the diamond. However, he realized that if he didn't sell it, it would likely be taken from him by force. So, instead, he threw it into the ocean. That night, he was told in a dream that because of this great sacrifice, he would be blessed with a son whose light would outshine all the precious stones in the world, and whose Torah would illuminate generations to come. The following year, he had a son, whom he named Shlomo. He grew to become the towering sage known as Rashi. A man told me a personal story that took place more than 30 years ago: After high school, he traveled to Israel, where he became religious. He returned for a second year and planned to go back for a third. That summer, he was in his hometown making the final arrangements for his return. On the last day before his flight, on the way to the airport, he stopped at a convenience store to buy a drink and some snacks. While in the store, he remembered that he had purchased a lottery ticket and decided to check the numbers on the store's machine. As soon as he inserted the ticket, red sirens went off across the store. Startled, he asked what was happening. The store manager told him, "That means you won. You matched at least five numbers—possibly six." Shocked, he asked how much he had won. The manager replied, "It could be anywhere from $500,000 to several million dollars." He was stunned. For a moment, he paused to take it all in. But then, fear set in. If he had won millions, would he still go back to yeshiva ? Would this change his life in ways he didn't want? He made a firm decision: instead of checking the numbers immediately, he would first board his flight to Israel. Once he was settled back in yeshiva , he would check the ticket and see how much he had won. Early the next morning, he arrived in Israel and went straight to the yeshiva building. He placed his jacket in the same spot where he had always hung it for the past two years and then went to the Kotel to pray Shacharit . When he returned, his jacket was gone. His lottery ticket was in the zipper pocket. He had not told anyone about the ticket. He searched the entire yeshiva , but the jacket was never found. To this day, he has no idea how much he would have won. Instead of millions of dollars, Hashem gave him something far greater—he remained in yeshiva for several more years, married a bat talmid chacham , and raised a family of outstanding talmidei chachamim with sterling Midot. It is clear that the money was not meant for him, but the test most certainly was. Hashem had given him an extraordinary nisayon . And heroically, he chose to return to Israel, fearing that the money would steer him away from the path he had chosen. Hashem blessed him in ways far beyond anything money could buy. Life's tests can be challenging, but they are designed to lift us up and make us great.…
When someone faces a difficult test in life, their initial reaction may be one of resentment. "Why do I have to deal with this now?" they may think to themselves. It may seem as if they are simply a victim of circumstance, stuck in an unfair situation. But the correct perspective is to recognize that Hashem arranged this challenge specifically for them. Hashem is presenting them with a unique opportunity to grow and reach great heights. The test may be incredibly difficult to overcome, but we know the rule: " לפום צערא אגרא " —according to the difficulty is the reward. I read a story about a woman who worked as a secretary in a yeshivah , earning a relatively low income. Her husband's job was commission-based, and there were times when he didn't earn anything at all. When they struggled to make ends meet, she would borrow money from the yeshivah 's gemach . The man in charge of the gemach had a strict policy: He would only accept repayment in his home, where he could personally tear up the record of the loan. One day, the secretary wanted to repay her loan while she was still in the yeshiva , as she had no time to go to his house. At first, he refused, but after much pleading, he finally agreed. A month later, she received a call from him, saying her loan was still outstanding. She reminded him that she had paid in the yeshiva building, but he had forgotten. Since the record of the loan had not been destroyed, he insisted that she still owed the money. She pleaded with him to trust her, but he refused. The most he was willing to do was say, "If you already paid, then consider it a donation. But you must pay." This was an incredibly difficult test. She and her husband were already struggling, and now they were being asked to repay a loan they had already paid. But they decided to pay again—for the sake of shalom . A couple of weeks later, she was unexpectedly offered a government job with a high salary and excellent benefits. From then on, she never needed to take another loan. Now, years later, even after retiring, she continues to receive a pension from that job. We can never fully understand Hashem's ways, but it seems clear that this test was given to her as an opportunity to merit great blessing. Rabbi Pinchas Shefer shared a similar story: He knows a man who seems to have supernatural success. Whatever he touches turns to gold. He has nachat from his children, and every shidduch he pursued for them worked out in the best possible way. But life was not always easy for him. He was born to a father who was extremely difficult to respect. His father had many personal struggles, which affected the way he treated his children and those around him. This man recognized that his challenge in life was kibbud av va'em . Instead of letting his circumstances destroy him, he used them to build himself. While his siblings distanced themselves from their father, he made every effort to honor him, fulfill his needs, and treat him with respect. He even went beyond what halacha required, purely out of gratitude to the father who had brought him into this world. Even when his father humiliated him, he remained silent so as not to diminish his father's honor. Although we do not fully understand the ways of Hashem, it is clear that of all his siblings, he was the one with tremendous success in every area of life. Life's tests may be difficult, but they are given to us to grow and gain from.…
In this week's parasha, Teruma, Hashem told Moshe: דבר אל בני ישראל ויקחו לי תרומה -speak to the Jewish People and ask them to donate toward the construction of the Mishkan. The Ba'al HaTurim quotes a pasuk in Yeshayahu, דברו על לב ירושלים , to explain that here Hashem was asking Moshe to appease the Jewish people before requesting donations. Why? Because He was about to ask them to part with their money. The Da'at Shraga raises a perplexing question: All of the wealth that the Jews had—their gold, silver, and precious stones—came directly from Hashem. He made them rich in Mitzrayim and at the Yam Suf. Shouldn't they have had a natural sense of hakarat hatov and give happily? Especially considering how central hakarat hatov is to Judaism. We are called Yehudim because we acknowledge and express gratitude for the good we receive. The Midrash tells us that when Hashem commanded Moshe to go to Pharaoh and save Bnei Yisrael, Moshe first had to ask permission from Yitro. Why? Because Yitro had opened his home to him, and Moshe understood that someone who receives kindness must show hakarat hatov . Only after receiving Yitro's permission did Moshe go to redeem the Jewish people. This demonstrates how essential hakarat hatov is. So why did the Jews need to be appeased before giving back to Hashem? The Da'at Shraga answers that the Torah is teaching us a profound lesson. Of course, the Jewish people were obligated to show hakarat hatov and give generously—and indeed, they did! They contributed so much that Moshe had to tell them to stop because there was a surplus. However, the one who gives is not supposed to demand hakarat hatov . As the Chovot Halevavot teaches in Sha'ar Habitachon, when a person does a favor for someone else, he should never mention it again or make the recipient feel indebted. True giving must be unconditional. This principle does not exempt the recipient from showing gratitude, but hakarat hatov must come from the recipient's own initiative—it should never be expected by the giver. For this reason, Hashem asked Bnei Yisrael to donate as if He had never given them anything in the first place. Their hakarat hatov had to be purely from them. When we receive something, we owe hakarat hatov in two ways: First and foremost, to Hashem—because everything we receive ultimately comes from Him. Second, to the person who was chosen as Hashem's messenger to bring us this good. This concept is vital in maintaining strong relationships, particularly in marriage. Many spouses feel unappreciated, which causes them to lose motivation to continue giving. We must remind ourselves: Our reason for giving is because it is Hashem's will. When we give, we are serving Him. Hashem recognizes and rewards every act of giving, even if we receive no appreciation from others. At the same time, a spouse who receives should recognize and express gratitude for what the other does. A little appreciation provides tremendous chizuk and encourages even more giving. But receiving hakarat hatov is a bonus—it should not determine how we act. The Chovot HaLevavot further teaches that when a person gives l'shem shamayim , Hashem guarantees that he will ultimately receive the hakarat hatov he deserves. Our focus should always be on giving without expecting anything in return. And when we live this way, Hashem ensures that we receive what is truly best for us. Shabbat Shalom.…
Chazal tell us that Hashem made our Imahot barren because He desired their prayers. Many ask the question, we know that Hashem is all merciful and only does what's best for us, so why would He put the Imahot through all that pain because of something He desired? Our sefarim hakedoshim teach us that Hashem places each person in this world to do a mission, and a major part of that mission is to recognize Hashem from amidst the darkness and tribulations that are experienced here. Hashem took a piece of Himself and put it inside of us, it's called our neshama . That neshama yearns to have a relationship with Hashem, but our physical bodies get in the way. The goal is for the spiritual to shine through the physical. Rabbi Menashe Reizman quoted from many sources that when a person experiences difficulties, his physicality gets diminished and it allows for his neshama to get much closer to Hashem. If that is the point of our existence, to get as close to Hashem as possible while being here, that means a difficulty becomes a great opportunity. Someone who does not know this prays all of their tefilot with one focus – just to end the hardship. But with this knowledge, the person could accomplish so much more with his prayers. He could recognize that he was just let into the palace of the King – the closest he can get. He can gain spiritual fortunes through connecting to Hashem in ways that were not available before. During those times, recognizing that Hashem is the only One who can help him will do wonders in connecting the person to Hashem. Because when a person needs help, and he comes to Hashem completely nullifying all other options, that is the greatest expression of finding Hashem amidst the darkness. Our Imahot were barren, and there was nothing any doctor could do to help them. During those years, when they were praying to Hashem and recognizing He was the only One who could help them, they achieved a relationship with Hashem beyond our comprehension. Their physicality was broken down and their neshamot were shining so brightly. They completely nullified themselves to Hashem and that achieved perfection for them in this world. Yes, they were eventually given what they wanted and it was precisely because they achieved such closeness to Hashem. Whenever anyone is going through a dark time in his or her life, he should know the opportunity to achieve closeness to Hashem at that time is unparalleled. A woman told me, at her daughter-in-law's 20 week sonogram, she was given a very negative report. The doctor told her and her husband that the baby had many heart abnormalities as well as kidney issues. The husband asked the doctor, who was a gentile, "What should we do now?" The doctor replied, "I see from your dress that you believe in G-d. The best advice that I can give you is to pray to Him." Over the next few months, the fetus was checked by various cardiologists and surgeons and they all said the same thing: best case scenario is that when the baby comes out it would need just one open heart surgery, but most likely it would need several surgeries. Meanwhile, the family worked hard on their emunah and bitachon , they spoke to gedolim , they read stories of similar cases where Hashem made miracles and they utilized this time to pray every tefila from the depths of their hearts. Last week, the young woman went into labor. There were nine doctors in the room who informed the parents that the baby was going to be born with a scary color, it would not cry when it came out, and it would be weeks before the mother would be able to hold it or feed it. And then, the baby came out. And it was crying, and it had the perfect coloring, and it did not need to be hooked up to any machinery. The heart had a very minute issue which did not require any surgery at all. The mother held the baby, fed the baby and a few days later took her beautiful baby girl home from the hospital. The doctor told the family, "I'm so glad I and everybody else was so wrong." Everybody did see something abnormal there, but Hashem showed them He was the only one in charge. The woman told me throughout that time period, her emunah level was at the highest it ever was, her relationship with Hashem hit new levels and she is so appreciative for that, besides for the miracles they received. P.S. They had consulted separately with three gedolim during that time and each one of them said that the baby was going to be born totally healthy. Another man I know recently told me, a few years back the hospital called him telling him the horrifying news that his relative was diagnosed with a terminal illness. While his wife was still on the phone with the doctor, he called a gadol who will remain nameless and asked him for a beracha . The gadol told him, there is nothing wrong with your relative, the doctors are mistaken. He said, "Rabbi, the doctor is on the other line reading the test results off of a laboratory report." The Rabbi reiterated, "He's wrong." Fifteen minutes later, the doctor called back apologizing, they misread the diagnosis and the person did not have the illness they thought he had. Hashem gives special siyata d'Shamaya to those who are closest to Him. We can all become very close to Hashem by recognizing Him in this world, especially during those times that He seems to be so hidden.…
When someone is going through a difficult time and prays day and night for a yeshuah but sees no change, it becomes incredibly hard to continue praying. He begins to feel like Hashem isn't listening. So why should I bother? He sees everyone around him enjoying their lives, free of the challenges he is facing, and he wonders, Why me? Why do I have to be so different? He has learned that everything Hashem does is good—but in this case, he cannot fathom how his suffering could possibly be for the best. Sara Imenu was one of the greatest women who ever lived. She went decades without a child, praying day and night, yet her tefillot remained unanswered. How could this have been good for her? Isn't raising children the essence of a Jewish woman's role? Everyone around her was building families, which made her situation even more painful. Yet, in hindsight, it was precisely this challenge that made Sara Imenu who she became, Decades of heartfelt tefilla without an answer. Decades of unwavering trust in Hashem, believing He was doing what was best for her. She was destined to be the mother of Klal Yisrael , and that required years of deep, heartfelt prayer. When something is extremely difficult for a person, it becomes exponentially more valuable. Praying after not being answered is far more precious than a routine tefilla. Believing in Hashem's kindness, even when everything seems to say otherwise, is an extraordinary zechut . If someone is struggling and searching for merit, these are among the greatest things he can do: Believe that his suffering is from Hashem and is for the absolute best, and continue praying, even though the answer has not yet come. Someone once shared that he had been begging Hashem for help. There were many possible outcomes that he would have been somewhat happy with. But after all of his efforts and tefillot, in his mind, the worst possible scenario unfolded. It became almost unbearable for him to continue praying when things only seemed to get worse. But perhaps Hashem was giving him the opportunity to attain the ultimate zechut —to trust in Hashem even after experiencing the greatest letdown. The ability to return and place one's trust in Hashem after such disappointment is an extraordinary achievement. The primary goal of a person's time in this world is to become the greatest eved Hashem he can be. And it is through challenges like these that we accomplish that goal. The Midrash in Yalkut Tehillim teaches that everyone experiences afflictions in life: Some lose sleep at night due to a toothache. Some are kept awake by an eye ailment. And some willingly stay awake learning Torah. The Midrash explains that all these afflictions count toward a person's necessary yesurim . When we endure pain in our avodat Hashem , it removes suffering that would have come in other ways. Losing sleep to learn Torah is difficult, but Hashem, in His kindness, does not only reward us for the Torah learned—He also considers it a substitute for other afflictions. Similarly, if someone finds it extremely difficult to pray—if it is the last thing he wants to do—then beyond the immense value it has for his neshama , and beyond the yeshuah it can bring, it is also considered a form of yesurim for him. Hashem sees the full picture of our lives. His goal is for us to succeed in this world and fulfill our mission, so we can enjoy eternal bliss in the Next World. The afflictions of this world are insignificant compared to the eternal reward that awaits us. But the only way to earn that reward is to fulfill our avodah in this world. Every tefilla we say, every thought of emunah we have, is infinitely precious. Everyone is destined for greatness—but we must put in the hard work first. Our greats never turned away from Hashem despite the immense difficulties they faced. Their tefillot and emunah through their challenges are what made them the tzaddikim they became.…
Gemilut Chasadim is one of the mitzvot for which Hashem rewards us in both this world and the next. It is so precious to Hashem when we go out of our way to help others. The Chafetz Chaim writes in his sefer Ahavat Chesed that after 120 years, when a person stands in judgment before Hashem, he will see that most of the mitzvot he performed were not done with all the required halachic details. However, if he was a ba'al chesed in this world, Hashem will judge him with chesed as well. Even if he doesn't fully deserve it, his mitzvot will be accepted, and he will receive their full reward. Gemilut Chasadim is not only about giving money—it is about giving time and energy. Whenever we go out of our way to help someone, we should be mindful that we are fulfilling the mitzva of Gemilut Chasadim . And no matter what, we always gain from it. A man, whom we'll call Reuven, shared the following story: In 2013, Reuven was living in an apartment with about $7,000 in his bank account. One Sunday morning, he received a call from someone asking if he could help make a minyan for a person who needed to say Kaddish . At first, his yetzer hara tried to convince him otherwise. "It's raining outside, it's cold, I'm sure they'll find someone else." But he overcame the struggle and went to join the minyan . After tefillah , the man who had asked him to come thanked him and mentioned that he was getting involved in something called Bitcoin. Reuven had never heard of it before. The man encouraged him to buy one coin. At the time, the price was $50 per coin. Reuven listened to his advice and bought one. Very quickly, the price doubled to $100. Excited, Reuven called the man to thank him. The man told him, "Buy more. I'm certain it will keep going up." Following his advice, Reuven bought more coins—and as the price rose, he kept buying. Today, his Bitcoin holdings are worth millions, with each coin valued at around $100,000. Of course, in the Next World , his act of helping someone make a minyan will be worth infinitely more than millions of Bitcoins. But he is also happy to have seen a side benefit from the good deed he did. Sometimes we are asked to help others, and we don't think we can. But Hashem is interested in the effort , not just the results. If He wants the person to be helped, He will bless the efforts. A real estate developer, whom we'll call Shimon, shared his own experience: One day, he received a request from someone who needed an urgent appointment at the Cleveland Clinic. The waiting list for this particular appointment was extremely long. Shimon was very involved in helping people, but this time he felt he had no connections at the Cleveland Clinic. He initially told the person that he didn't think he could help. But after hanging up the phone, he told himself, "I have to at least try." He searched for a list of hospital contacts and decided to call the vice president. The secretary answered, and Shimon introduced himself. Thirty seconds later, the vice president was on the line. "Are you Shimon Cohen, the real estate developer?" the man asked. Shimon replied, "Yes." The vice president continued, "I've been on a waiting list to get a condo in one of your buildings in Florida. I heard there are only a couple of units left, and multiple people are trying to get the last one." Shimon told him, "Let me see what I can do for you." The vice president then asked why Shimon had called him. Shimon explained that he had a friend who urgently needed an appointment at the hospital. The vice president immediately replied, "Consider it done. You help me, and I'll help you." Afterward, Shimon reflected, "What were the odds that the one person I called would be someone who needed my help at that exact moment?" Because Shimon had a sincere desire to help, Hashem orchestrated the zechut for him to do so. Every effort we make to help others is precious to Hashem. And the more chesed we do, the more chesed Hashem grants us in return.…
Chazal tell us that in the future, all korbanot will be nullified except for one—the Korban Toda. We know that a Todah is brought when someone is saved from a dangerous situation. But after Mashiach comes, when there will no longer be any danger, why would we need to bring a Korban Todah? The Belzer Rebbe explained that in the future, Hashem will reveal to us all of the miracles He performed for us every single day of our lives—miracles we never even realized were happening. For those, we bring korbanot to Hashem in gratitude. The pasuk states, " כימי צאתך מארץ מצרים אראנו נפלאות "—"As in the days when you left Egypt, I will show you wonders." The Meshech Chochma quotes the midrash, which explains that in the future, we will see miracles beyond anything we could have ever imagined. What kind of miracles could possibly surpass Kriyat Yam Suf and the Ten Plagues? He answers that the greatest revelation will be when we see how every moment in history—even the darkest times—was truly a manifestation of Hashem's infinite love. This realization will be the greatest novelty to us. A perfect example is Megillat Esther. Even though Bneh Yisrael had already seen Kriyat Yam Suf, the Megillah was a completely new revelation for them. Why? Because in Megillat Esther, we witnessed how Hashem controls everything within nature. The story unfolded over more than ten years, yet every detail was orchestrated precisely by Hashem. This was the chidush—that Hashem can control everything while remaining completely hidden, without anyone realizing it. Rabbi Menashe Reizman gave a mashal: Imagine someone trying to enter a king's palace while guards stand at their posts. One way to get inside is to eliminate the guards and then walk in. A much harder way is to sneak through while the guards remain in place. In the same way, Hashem controls everything—down to the finest details—while we are there, without disrupting the normal order of the world. In the future, all of this will be revealed. We will see Hashem's hand in every part of our lives, and we will experience overwhelming joy. We will run to bring korbanot to Hashem for all the chesed He has done for us that we never even knew about. A young man from London recently shared his story with me. He is married to a girl from Brooklyn. When I asked how their shidduch came about, he explained that his wife had gone to seminary in Israel, where she made some friends from London. Before returning to America, she stopped in London to visit these friends. One night, as she arrived at their apartment, she discovered that the door was locked, and she couldn't get in. She called another friend, who invited her to stay at her house. While she was there, she met her friend's mother, who immediately thought she would be the perfect match for her son. And that's how they got married. Look at how Hashem brings couples together in ways that seem so natural, yet are completely miraculous. How does a girl from Brooklyn end up meeting her zivug in London? Hashem arranged for her to become close friends with someone from London, orchestrated her stopover in the city, and then—at just the right moment—caused her to get locked out of her friend's apartment. These kinds of stories happen to hundreds of people every single day, yet most of the time, we don't even recognize Hashem's involvement. Recently, we witnessed an open miracle that Hashem performed through the natural way of the world: Terrorists had planned to detonate bombs on five buses in Israel during the morning rush hour at 9 a.m., when the buses would be packed with people. Rachmana litzlan, had their plan succeeded, the casualties would have been devastating. But instead, the bombs went off at 9 p.m. the night before—when the buses were empty, parked in a lot. How could such a sophisticated, carefully planned attack have failed so drastically? How did they make the exact same timing mistake on every single bomb? To the world, it looked like human error. But we know the truth. This was nothing less than the Yad Hashem to save His children, hidden within the natural order. It is up to us to look for Hashem's hand in everything, to find it as often as we can, and to appreciate—even now—the endless kindness that Hashem does for us every single day.…
In this week's parasha , Mishpatim , the Torah teaches us how careful we must be not to cause harm to another person or his property. Right after Matan Torah , the first mitzvot that Bnei Yisrael were taught were the civil laws governing interpersonal relationships. We must take to heart that the same Hashem who commanded us to observe Shabbat , Kashrut , and Taharot HaMishpacha also commanded us to compensate others if we cause them damage. The same kedusha that we receive by fulfilling mitzvot between us and Hashem is present when we fulfill mitzvot ben adam l'chavero . Just as a person understands that he cannot possibly know the halachot of Shabbat without learning them, he must also understand that he cannot possibly know the halachot of monetary law without studying them or consulting a rav . Those who are truly yirei shamayim are extremely careful when it comes to monetary halachot . Just as they would not take a chance with consuming something that is not kosher , they are equally meticulous about not violating laws related to theft or withholding payments owed to others. Rabbi Shlomo Levenstein told the following story: A young rabbi in Bet Shemesh had been learning in kollel for years but was not satisfied with the upcoming sugyot they were scheduled to study. He began searching for a kollel that was learning the topics he was most passionate about, but after months of searching, he was unable to find what he was looking for. Meanwhile, his household expenses continued to mount, and he had no source of income to cover them. One day, his wife went to the grocery store. After checking out, she met someone she knew outside and began talking. In the middle of their conversation, her shopping wagon slipped away unnoticed. Suddenly, someone shouted, alerting her that the wagon was rolling straight toward the street. She ran to catch up with it, managing to grab it just before it entered the road. However, on its way, the wagon had hit a parked car, leaving a scratch. She returned home and told her husband what had happened. He immediately jumped out of his chair and exclaimed, "Oh no! We damaged someone's property and didn't pay for it. We owe him money! We must find him at once." Without hesitation, they hurried out of the house and ran back to the grocery store. When they arrived, the woman pointed out the car that had been scratched, and they saw that the driver was just pulling out of the parking spot. The young rabbi motioned for the driver to stop so he could speak with him. He explained that his wife had accidentally scratched the car with her shopping wagon. The driver responded that he had seen the scratch and was very upset that someone had damaged his brand-new car without leaving a note. He said, "If the car had been old, it wouldn't have bothered me so much. But I just got this car two days ago. It really upset me." The young rabbi apologized profusely, gave the driver his phone number, and told him, "No matter what it costs, we will pay the full price." As the rabbi and his wife walked home, he began to wonder how he would possibly pay for the damages. It was never a question of whether he would pay—only a question of how . A minute later, as they continued walking, he bumped into a friend who asked how he was doing. He mentioned that he had been searching for a new kollel but had not been able to find the right one. The friend responded, "I actually just opened a kollel that is learning exactly what you're looking for. We have nine avreichim and one spot left." Not only that, but the stipend they were paying was significantly higher than what he had been receiving in his previous kollel . The rabbi immediately told his friend, "I would love to join." Afterward, he reflected on what had happened. "Paying for damages when you don't have the money is difficult. But when Hashem saw that I was willing to do the right thing, He gave me the greatest gift—the kollel I had been searching for—as well as the ability to pay for the damages." Every mitzva is precious. Just because monetary laws involve other people and seem like mundane matters does not mean they have any less kedusha than mitzvot between us and Hashem. Hashem wants us to be complete in all mitzvot . And those that involve parting with money—especially when it is difficult—are even greater in His eyes. Shabbat Shalom.…
When people hear of a great new segula, they're very eager to try it, in many cases, even if it would cost them a lot of money or entail traveling. We have the greatest segula of all available to us at any time, free of charge. When a person prays to Hashem with real belief in His power and control, and a true feeling that He could easily help despite the hurdles that need to be overcome, that can produce the greatest salvations. When person A approaches person B for help, it can easily be detected if A really believes person B will help, or he's just going through the motions of asking. When a person really believes that Hashem is his best and only option, his approach will be different than when he thinks he has other options. A man told that both of his parents died young from heart conditions, רחמנא ליצלן . After he himself experienced certain sensations and symptoms in his heart , h e went to a doctor who determined that something was very wrong. He had a rare defect in his heart muscle, and to fix it, he would need to undergo a complex surgery by a world-renowned specialist, the only expert known for that type of issue. All of the people he spoke to told him the same thing. "If you value your life, make sure to do the surgery." This man lived in Israel, and would need to travel to Minnesota for the operation. He would have to rent an apartment near the hospital, then go for the surgery, and after recovery, go back to stay in that apartment. He would need to periodically go for checkups for up to six months after the surgery. In his mind, this meant a half a year in exile. What would be with his children? His wife would have to come along to take care of him. What would he do about minyan, about his shi'urim in Torah? What would become of his business? And where would he get hold of the astronomical sums needed for the surgery? He tried to get advice from anyone he knew in the medical field. He was advised to consult with a senior advisor who perhaps could find an alternate solution. He made the meeting and the advisor said, there is no other choice. "You must go to Minnesota as quickly as possible. Don't waste any more time. Your life is on the line." The man left there in a state of panic. He then went to shul to pray Arbit and heard the chazan saying, ה' צבאות עמנו משגב לנו - Hashem is with us and He supports us. At that moment, he was overcome with a feeling of bitachon in Hashem. The chazan continued, אשרי אדם בוטח בך. ה' הושיע המלך יעננו ביום קראנו - Hashem, save us, the King who answers us on the day we call out to Him. What a treasure. He had been saying those words all of his life but never fully appreciated them like he did at that moment. Hashem is the King of the entire world. With all of the doctors and all of the refuot, He is the only One who saves us. That Arbit was like Ne'ila on Yom Kippur for him. In fact, it was even more intense. He understood with all of his senses and bones that he is dependent only on the Chesed Hashem and that He is the only One with any say. He begged Hashem to heal him and spare him from six months in exile. After that, he still had to prepare in case he had to go. His wife was trying to work out the finances with his insurance company as well as all the other logistics of the trip to Minnesota. Meanwhile, he was becoming weaker and weaker. His heart was giving more and more warning signs. The surgery was scheduled for three weeks later in Minnesota and he continued to pray that Hashem give him a Refua Shelema right there in Israel. About ten days before the surgery, he received a call from his local hospital telling him the most amazing news. A very wealthy man with the same condition as him paid a huge sum of money to fly in the surgeon from Minnesota. He would be in the hospital there for 24 hours and they were hoping he would do his surgery as well. The hospital itself wanted all of their surgeons present to watch and learn from this man. The day came and the surgeon operated on him as well. It took only six hours instead of the eight that was expected. The surgeon told him it went extremely well. The man only had to be in the hospital for one week. He never had to leave his children or his minyan or his learning. Now, its 25 years later, and his heart continues to beat with tremendous gratitude to Hakadosh Baruch Hu for orchestrating those events the way he did. There is no segula like believing in the power of Hashem.…
Living Emunah 2717 In the Blink of an Eye Believing in Hashem's ability to bring salvation in the blink of an eye is an invaluable avoda . It is also something that is expected of every Jew to fully internalize. This is not always easy—especially after years of hoping and waiting without seeing salvation. A year ago, I met a rabbi who told me that he was davening for his 34-year-old daughter, who was still waiting to find her zivug . Recently, I met this man again, and this time he told me, "Mazal Tov!" His daughter, now 35, had just gotten married a few weeks earlier, and they couldn't be happier with the shidduch . We must never give up hope, no matter how long it takes. At the recent A Time Shasathon , a family shared their painful yet inspiring journey through infertility. A man explained that when his daughter was 14 years old, doctors discovered that she did not have a uterus. Naturally, this meant she would face a very difficult road ahead. Wanting to protect her, the family chose not to tell her right away. However, when she was 18 and in seminary , she found out. She understood the enormous challenge she was facing, and of course, she was distraught. Then, when it came time to begin shidduchim , the question loomed: How could she possibly get married under such circumstances? It was during COVID, and she met someone over Zoom. Their conversations went well, and they continued meeting virtually several more times. After about a month, she felt it was time to tell him everything. She explained her medical condition, and the young man immediately grasped the gravity of what she was saying. But at that moment, something remarkable happened—he thought of his grandfather. His grandfather had been engaged when he was told that his kallah was ill and had only six months to live. Instead of walking away, his grandfather said, "I believe in Hashem. Only He determines a person's time in this world." He went ahead with the marriage, and in the end, his wife lived for 22 more years. They had three beautiful children and many grandchildren—including this young man. Hashem had already trained him with the emunah and perspective he would need to marry this girl. He consulted with rabbanim and expressed his desire to stand by her side through life's journey. He received their beracha , and the wedding took place. Later, the couple began exploring the possibility of a uterus transplant. After extensive research, they were approved for a program at a hospital in Birmingham, Alabama. They had to move there indefinitely and wait for a match. Every day there felt like an eternity. They were alone in a foreign place, unable to travel for Shabbat or Yom Tov , since they had to remain on-call at all times, but they knew Hashem was with them. Then, on Shabbat Parashat Lech Lecha , while her husband was in shul , the hospital left a message—their match had arrived. Early Monday morning, she underwent surgery. It was during the week of Parashat Vayera , the very parasha that contains the words: " וה' פקד את שרה " —Hashem granted Sarah a uterus at an advanced age so she could conceive. That week, this woman was also given a uterus, and b'ezrat Hashem , she would one day be able to have children. In that same parasha , we read the words: " היפלא מה' דבר ?" —Is anything beyond Hashem's power? This was the beginning of the miraculous road that Hashem paved for them. Baruch Hashem , this past year, they were blessed with their first child. Everything is possible with emunah . The Rishonim discuss why there is a mitzvah to eat on Erev Yom Kippur . Many say that it is to provide strength for the fast the next day. This raises a question: If someone is ill and unable to fast, does he still have the mitzva to eat on Erev Yom Kippur ? The Sdeh Chemed writes that he absolutely does. Why? Because Hashem can heal a person in an instant, and by the time Yom Kippur arrives, he may very well be able to fast. The Sdeh Chemed uses the phrases: " ישועת ה' כהרף עין " and " היפלא מה' דבר ?" —principles that are so fundamental they even influence halacha . It is up to us to develop our emunah to the point that no matter what we are going through, we know—Hashem can always help us in an instant.…
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